This weekend, I officially moved to Redlands. Friday night, I borrowed my dad’s truck and moved my mattress, clothes, and snowboards to my new place. Keller helped me unload the truck and set stuff up. I love that guy.

I have owned the place for a month now, but I had to do a lot of work before I could move in. Mostly paint the walls, put in new flooring and get/assemble new furniture. Ikea is my home away from home. Saturday I went and got a bunch of stuff, but i need to return some of it tonight… wrong color wood.

Eric and I designed 2 new pieces of xDEATHSTARx merch, a new shirt and a zip-up hoodie. We should have those made in time for our show at showcase on Thursday.

On the subject of xDEATHSTARx, I have started to redesign our website. I have also re-started construction of the next version of notPop. Last night I spent some time and worked on the private messaging/notPop-mail feature that we will have. If you have any suggestion about what you would like to see in the new notPop, or xDEATHSTARx site, please let me know.

Today I am feeling a bit better. Last night I started to feel really bad. Kind of like a cold was coming on. I rocked the theraflu, and went to bed early (I don’t know if you call a mattress on the floor a bed, I couldn’t move my mattress to my new house yet because of the rain)

Today is October 21, 10.21 if you will. One of my favorite bands is SkyCameFalling. Their only full length is called "10.21", thus making this SkyCameFalling Day.

Released in 2000, on Ferret Records, 10.21 blends Hardcore aggression with the pain of Emo Music. I’m not talking about some crappy new hardcore band that wears girls clothes, has fashion hair, pink merch, and sings about how girls are evil. This album was possibly at the fore front of all that, but its watered down or cliche at all.

The music is heavy, but not brutal. There are not crucial breakdowns, sing alongs, two-steps or anything like that. Its just raw, maybe that’s why I’m so attracted to it.

I started to listen to this album early in 2001, but It didn’t really hook me until June 2001 or so. My grandpa was dying in the hospital, and I would watch him during the night. All I had to pass my time while he slept was my headphones, and my computer. I listened to this album several times a night it seemed like. The frustration in the lyrics and vocals, along with the heavy, but elegant at time music summed up my feelings completely.

The metaphors and similes used in the lyrics show thought and reflection, and give depth to the words I believe. Examples:

"When the sun never rises wherever you are, you begin to lose track of the stars"

"Someday we may rise up in the hearts of those we once loved as picture perfect memories"

"These sand-castles we so carefully built. The waves crash in. Washes them all back to sea, watch them crumble."

The cd also features 3 instrumental tracks. 1:21 seconds, 2:04 seconds, and 8:59 seconds. I believe that the instrumental tracks speak volumes about the bands. It offers almost a reflective time, and a break to let things sink it. It really adds to the over all balance of beauty of this album.

On September 8th 2001, I saw my grandfather buried. I left his funeral, still dress in a suit and drove to the showcase theatre in corona. SkyCameFalling was playing, Sante Sangre, Bleeding Through, and Atreyu for $8. I lost my mind at the show, loving all of the bands that played. I don’t even really remember seeing SkyCameFalling play, I didn’t stop moving and singing along. I was venting all the frustration of losing my grandfather to music that was equally as raw.

After the show, I got to talk to the singer of SkyCameFalling, I asked him what the numbers "10.21" meant. He told me that on October 21st he lost his Job, his Girlfriend and got kicked out of his house… the worst day of his life. All he had left was his band, and hardcore.

Some people say that bands like this don’t have a place in hardcore. This music and this band was something that I was able to connect to and something positive for me when I was hurting and feeling alone. Their music gave me a release to pinned up anger and frustration, and let me feel that I wasn’t the only one who was hurting out there.

SkyCameFalling broke up earlier this year, so I will never get the chance to see them again, I wont ever forget what it was like when I did see them, and I wont stop listening to 10.21

(Thats me with my hand in the air)